(i caught a bit of nick and norah’s infinite playlist on television today, the soundtrack is my favourite movie soundtrack so far 
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i woke up at 4pm today and felt like crap. and had no motivation to do anything. so i didn’t. one whole day wasted procrastinating and doing nothing.
it’s official. i’m in my gutter phase now. somewhere along the way i fell in again, even though i promised myself i wouldn’t, and tried so hard not to. it’s a vicious cycle. you can’t handle the pressure, so you feel crushed; you feel crushed so you try to escape; you escape because you can’t handle the pressure.
i’ve got to learn that life isn’t perfect. someone always reminds me (on an ever so frequent basis),
“there is no free lunch in this world”
so i can’t expect everything to fall right out of the sky and nicely onto the plate in front of me, can i?
time to get cracking. i’m getting out no matter how many times i fall in. (cos i’m pretty sure luck doesn’t get you any where in university, unlike before)
